Sleep Thinking

This morning i woke up and instantly began thinking. i dont know if its because of a dream i had, because i really dont remember dreaming anything, but i thought why not blog about it! So i dont have too many close friends but i have beyond enough acquaintances/friends. and i am most certainly not stupid, but for a few people its blatantly clear that they just try to avoid me. and to be honest. i really dont know what the heck i did to them. i want to believe that they do that to move up the social ladder? all i have to say is wow wow wow. if you want to be a plastic (Mean Girls talk) by all means go right on. i guarantee you wont appreciate it in the end. you're not being YOU. but hey... that's your decision. i just have to continuously remind myself that in volleyball: i am there to learn, to play volleyball, and do the absolute best i can and improve. and in school: to set a foundation for the rest of my life. my first priority is not to make friends. so i could give two craps if you dont like me for whatever reason known to man. im not there for you. and after high school i probably will never see you again. ever. so why should you matter now? Welcome to my thoughts.